At first, I thought it would be repetitive if I ever posted this post because someone had already posted a post about this topic, and I believed that it happened to everyone, and it would cliché if I posted a post about it. But, when I saw another person posted a post concerning about her own experience and point of view about this topic, I believed that I, too, have the same right to post this topic in my own perspective and that’s why you would see the post below is really familiar, but still, it’s my life (not telling you Bon Jovi’s song) and this is my blog [where I have the priviledge to post anything I want as long as it served the ToS]!

 

Okay, let’s move on from the boring introduction

 

I’ve realized in the past, some days after I posted the wretched “Malam Ini” poem [you would not found it here, because I posted it] on Facebook, that everything is directed towards me and my life. It’s like getting everyone’s attention wherever you are [and as I am not a narcissus, I felt a little intimidated by the surroundings]! Believe me, I dislike it, though I know that I have to walk through it, and I will get something in return. Something which the value is set by the method I used to walk through this topic.

When I’m thinking about it, I believe I’ve seen the same case (let’s change the word ‘topic’ with the word ‘case’ for better understanding and less confusion, okay?), and I remembered that one of my friends had posted the same case on Facebook [and that’s why I thought that it’s gonna be repetitive if I ever posted this in the past]. At that time, I don’t understand what my friend is going through, and I admire him for realizing it so fast [or is it because he is reaching adolescence faster than normal people? Because one thing for sure, love makes the case comes at haste], so I just give him a philosophical answer. Now, I know that my philosophical answer couldn’t solve it well. I need to emphasize and dig it more to solve the case.

But today, when I checked my friend’s blog (which I didn’t check for days because I’m having very short time to be online), I realized that it really happens on every human teenager on Earth. This is a real and practical issue, gentlemen! When I read her post, I was amazed with her method to say things in parables – flawless parables – but I still get the message she wants to tell (something I believe I’m lacking at is the method to describe something indirectly).

 

Is it still the introduction?

Maybe

 

So, let’s read my point of view about this case.

 

I now realized that I am in the transition phase, a phase when a teenager is reaching adolescence and on the very first steps of the stairs that reach to adulthood. And I’m feeling irritated by this, because [I’ve told you that] I’m feeling intimidated by everything.

 

It’s like rubbing a cactus.

When I rub the cactus, I know that I have to be extremely careful about this, and if I ever move my hand all the way I want at any slightest bit, then I’m gonna be hurt by the thorns.

And to tell the truth, I’ve moved my hands all the way I want [because that’s me in the first place], I now realized that I moved my hands to the thorns, and it’s definitely my fault if I ever got hurt by the thorns.

 

Wait, what’s the point of rubbing cactus anyway?

Well, as you can see, that’s one example of the damage this case had done to me: “Inability to Think Clearly at Times”.

 

The point is, I’m confused with what I would become. I subconsciously feared it.

Why?

Maybe because I’m a coward

Maybe because I’m not ready [for there is no ready – Alan Parish, Jumanji]

Maybe because I [who used to know] don’t know anything about the future

Maybe because I could only predict immediate and short future in front of me

Maybe because I’m still lacking in many things

Maybe because I still have flaws and the wounds of the past reopen every passing minute

 

Phew

Really, Homo Socius, we are.

 

For I’ve realized that it’s not the time to crouch in the corner, cowering in fear and frustration. Actually, it’s time to stand up and face the consequences and challenges in front of me. The world is created for the ones who would fight, not the ones who would sit idly. And for that, I also realized that everyone is walking through this, and it’s not my own burden to walk this through. It’s everyone’s challenges, and by knowing that, I know that would have partners by my side. I clearly know that partners are not the ones who would help and support you all the time [because they’ll be helpers and supporters] and they’re not the ones who would work for you or whom you work for [or they’ll be employees and employers], but partners are the ones who would take the challenge with you and the ones who also need our help and supports. Being partners means to help and support each other – it’s not one sided relationship!

 

But don’t you know that we’re all alone in this world? That everyone is walking their own way? That no one could be your partners all the time?

I know that, for I’ve understood the surface of solitude. And once again I doubt my strength alone could break the barrier, jump the obstacles, and soar to the sky. But if I ever have to face it alone, then I’m gonna brace myself, be ready, and face it with my own way.

Because, it’s my life (not referring to Bon Jovi’s song)!

 

Well, if you are confused with this post – that you’re not getting the message I’m trying to tell – then it’s okay, because I know that I’m lacking at it. One thing for sure, I’ve posted it now, and I would not held my liberty back.

 

Thank you,

To everyone involved in nether and physical plane in the process of the typing of this post.