H. 707, K. 572, for you

Been a while since i posted, and actually, i don’t have anything to be posted in mind but one thing (perhaps a collective one) that keeps bugging my mind. I don’t know anything, and it kept bugging me until around 9 where i decided to give up thinking on this thing i don’t even know but can feel so real and just sit on my bed and start reading the Bible, according to my schedule: 2 Corinthians 13 and Proverbs 26-29; then i picked the “Arus Hayat” (it’s a small spiritual book that encompasses things about certain topics each week) whose portion i’m reading is about “singing”. Of course, because this is a spiritual book, the word “singing” here means singing to the Lord.

There, in Arus Hayat, the first paragraph on page 40 got me. Let me quote the entire paragraph for you in Bahasa Indonesia (because it’s typed in Bahasa Indonesia):

Pada pagi hari, ketika kamu datang pad Tuhan,s ering kali kamu tidak tahu harus ngomong apa untukk menuangkan apa yang ada di hatimu. Di saat seperti itu, kamu perlu sebuah kidung. Ada banyak kidung yang bisa membantu kamu mengungkapkan perasaanmu. Dan ketika kamu menyanyi dengan segenap hatimu, nyanyiaunmu itu akan memimpin kamu memasuki hadirat Tuhan. Pada saat itulah kamu dapat menjamah persona Kristus.

Too theoritical? Well, not for me, because it really got me that picked my hymns shortafter and looked on the contents and picked several songs and i started singing! I know my voice is worse than so-so but one thing i learned (not to forgive myself) is that when you sing, it’s the heart that really matters in the end, which means, it’s fine if your voice is awful, when you sing it from the bottom of your heart (and even better, the bottom of your spirit!), you’ll get over that voice problem and you’ll eventually realize that your singing is meaningful for yourself, save others.

That’s why, i kept singing until i felt the Spirit moved within me and encouraged me to sing another hymn, and then another hymn, until i found a really good hymn, which i quoted just below. If you want to know how it’s played (by piano), you can buffer the mp3 by following the link on the title too

Hymn 707 | Comfort in Trials – By the Lord’s Blessings

#1 When upon life’s billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

Chorus:
Count your blessings, name them one by one;
Count your blessings, see what God hath done;
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.

#2 Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to hear?
Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly,
And you will be singing as the days go by.

(return to chorus)

#3 When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold.
COunt your many blessings, money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven, nor your Lord on high.

(return to chorus)

#4 So amid the conflict, whether great or small,
Do not be discouraged, God is over all;
Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end.

See? Wonderful song, isn’t it?

And that’s not all because i also found another hymn (this one in Bahasa Indonesia)! And right now, it’s just below!

Kidung 572 | Doa – Memberi Tahu Tuhan

#1 Se-mua d’ritaku, ‘b’ri tahu Tuhan, tak sanggup ku tanggung sendiri;
Tuhan menghibur, waktu sengsara, seka air mata, b’ri simpati.

Koor:
B’ri tahu Tuhan! B’ri tahu Tuhan! Curah isi hati pada-Nya,
B’ri tahu Tuhan! B’ri tahu Tuhan! Di-a yang tahu, beri hibur.

#2 Se-mua susahku, b’ri tahu Tuhan, tak bisa aku hadapinya,
S’mua perkaraku, Di-a yang pikul, ku rasa lega dan terhibur.

(kembali ke Koor)

#3 Se-mua kurangku, b’ri tahu Tuhan, tak mampu aku buang kua-tir-ku,
Se-mua perluku, Tuhan pu-as-kan, nikmat kaya-Nya limpah sungguh.

(kembali ke Koor)

#4 Se-mua lemahku, b’ri tahu Tuhan, tak dapat aku lawan nafsu,
S’mua ikatanku, Tuhan yang bantu, ku bebas dari hukum dosa.

(kembali ke Koor)

#5 S’mua co-ba-anku, b’ri tahu Tuhan, tak sanggup aku lawan Iblis,
Tuhan di-co-bai, sama denganku, hanya Dia mampu bebaskanku.

See? Another wonderful hymn! It really got me that i don’t want to miss the chance to tell you about this song

Just count his blessings, name them one by one, and you’ll be amazed on God’s works over you! If that’s not enough, you can still tell everything to Him. Everything, as in everything! Thank God for His being our God!

Aurumina – How Could I Meet You Here?

Now that this is really uncommon
that I finally meet something here so common
that my mind can now the right word to describe
the abomination loved by the scribes

Incest
incest
or perhaps it’s imaginary
because there are these cases that’s extraordinary

Believe me, I’m good in faith and prayed everyday
yet now in this very day, when the lines were blurry
I realized how faith is fanthomable
because when I see you here, I can see myself so terrible

You’re not my real sister
because you came from a different father and mother
and I’ve never made myself a blood bond
thus I believe that somehow I can work on this bond

I only acknowledged you as one
because I need to save myself from that day
I don’t even know why I have to save myself that day
I just know that if I don’t, then I’ll always be the one
who cowers from the lights of the day
whenever I recognized each one
of the remainders of those dark days

yet now, when I know that I still cower from the things I’m facing
perhaps I just collapsed when I see you and him facing
the parallel paths that keep twisting and twisting
and eventually collides when it occured, the icing

jealousy is what comes within me
or perhaps another sanctuary is the one I’m seeking
o, how dark and malicious will I be
if I ever used you for my own benefits

for those eyes shall never betray its kin
and those smiles and giggles will never had me hurt
also the mind that shows only innocence
is the proof that I’m blind for your darkness

whenever the darkness crept you never gloomed
yet even like a flower you bloomed
you shine with those optimisim and inspiration
that really caught me and my breath into submission

I don’t know how you did it
but the way you danced like a ghost before me
is just the same as the way the black lightning did times ago
but you’re different, little girl
because unlike her, you’re naive
a trait I believe I also shared

but I know it’s unwise to conclude this based on what I’ve seen this far
because I know that somehow there’s always something further
beyond this point
will I make it there,
I believe I haven’t made any point
because I don’t know whether you’re with me or not,
even though you’ve come this far

future is something I should grasp
and the gilded idol is what I desired
will I finally grasp the thing I longed for life?
or should I stay when I’ve found a chance?

Aurumina – Reaching Out to the Light

It doesn’t start with once upon a time
because it started with every time I’ve spent
between each insults and blame
that succumbed me within this rock to repent
the rock where my heart can always find sanctuary
from the devils preying to toy me around
and finally stole some from its delicacy
thus I can feel what it’s like to have that wound

My rock had never failed me
instead it always nurtured me
whenever I’m struck, whenever I’m hurt
its arches curved around me
its walls stood up to confine me
and protected me from any possible assault
for that’s the only way for my rock to be with me
and for me to be comfortable within it

Yet as a drop of sunlight finally seeped through the cracks
and dazzled my eyes which it pierced
I know that I still have a life out there
although` it was stormy and dark
but there’s still a point of brief where I can see the sunlight
and feel its warmth on my skin, glittering its way to be underneath

In the morning I may recall
this kind of warmth brought by the drop
my rock, shall I leave you for everything you’ve done?
and if I shall, then how shall I get out of your complicated maze?
I’ve dug myself into you deep enough
that I only remembered flashes of my dreams
until this drop felt unto me and bewildered my will to see the surface
to once again embrace and reach out to the light.

Monochrome Resolution

Well, udah lama wa ngga nge-post lagi, nih. Hmmm, mungkin udah berapa bulan nih blog wa neglect (well, wa juga ngga blog walking, sih, jadinya ngga tau what’s going on with the people around ) *slapped*).

And karena sebentar lagi akan berganti tahun, maka sudah jelas wa di sini untuk merayakan tahun baru *slapped* nge-post tentang resolusi setahun ke belakang ini, yaitu tahun 2009.

So, yang kuat buat baca resolusi yang… yea, wa sendiri ngga tau nih resolusi bakalan kayak gimana =)) *slapped for real* … yea, pokoknya baca aja dah ) kalo minat =)) *kabur*

OKE, TAHUN 2009, TUH…

First of all, yang wa inget tentang tahun 2009 ini adalah, wa mulai visible lagi. Maksud? Yea, jadinya wa mulai terlihat lagi, kasat mata, gitu *stomped* oke, maksudnya wa mulai membuka diri. Ngga tau kenapa, kayaknya semester 1, tahun 2008, wa, tuh, invisible, ansos, *yea, masukkan kategori serupa lainnya di sini*
Well, wa ngomong kayak gini bukannya tanpa bukti, tapi waktu itu wa inget banget si E ngobrol bentar – singkat banget, cuma pertukaran 2 baris, kalo di naskah drama – and ujungnya si E ngomong: “Wah, ini pertama kalinya wa ngomong ama Male,” or something like that. Pokoknya intinya itu, and waktu itu wa sadar:

Oh, iya, ya… kayaknya wa baru pertama kali juga ngomong ke si E… padahal kita classmate! XD *slapped*

Yup, so, tahun 2009 adalah tahun di mana wa membuka diri, bahkan ada beberapa orang yang bisa dijadikan saksi kalo pas semester 1, tuh, wa serem, gloomy, yea, or things like that )
emang ngga salah, sih )
And ini ngebawa kita ke event ter-so sweet buat SEDUCTION (in my PoV), yaitu PASIR (PentAs Seni akhIr semesteR <– yea, tau, lah, kalo SMANSA suka MAKSA <– bahkan bunyinya [SMANSA ama MAKSA] pun mirip! *whacked*). Bukan karena skenarionya yang emang so sweet, tapi juga bagaimana kita, anggota SEDUCTION ini bisa bahu membahu, pundak memundak, mengerjakan proyek PASIR yang kayaknya telad banget dikerjain, borosnya bukan di properti, tapi di dubbing XD *slapped*, etc. Oke, wa ngga lupa kalo kita pernah ampe terpecah menjadi 3 kubu pas PASIR (Kubu X, Kubu Y, dan Kubu Z *slapped*), tapi semuanya terbayar, kan? Kita dapet juara 3 buat PASIR, setelah dibandingin sama kelas-kelas laen yang kelihatannya lebih keren properti, scene, latar, koreografi, and lagu-lagunya. Wa ngga lupa tentang puisi wa (dual poem kalo ngga salah dengan hidden meaning yang kental [ada yang tahu hidden meaningnya?]) pas katanya SEDUCTION mau dipisah. Wa ngga lupa bagaimana ada aliansi unofficial untuk menyatakan petisi ke sekolah buat menentang mosi re-shuffle kelas. Semuanya coming back begitu wa ngetik resolusi ini (bukan berarti wa lupa pas wa ngga ngetik resolusi, ya! XD cuma ngga ada waktu buat nginget <– sok sibuk *whacked), and meskipun wa ngga lebay and bombay, dan juga ngga merasakan ada kehangatan tersendiri di dada wa, tapi wa ngerti, kok, bagaimana ini adalah tahun yang berarti Buktinya wa sudah merasakan beberapa teman di antara kalian (SEDUCTION); pernah ada yang putus hubungan sebagai teman, sih, tapi udah balik lagi sekarang ; ada juga temen-temen baru dari berbagai kelas (di luar SEDUCTION); mungkin semua orang-orang tersebut juga ngebaca tulisan ini sekarang, so I just wanna say: it’s nice to have you, guys.
So, jadi ganti nama ngga?

NONTON? WHY NOT!

Oke, wa sebenernya lupa kapan wa mulai addicted to go to the cinema (jangan tanya ngapain!), so wa masukin aja ke sini *stomped* Jadi pokoknya jelas tahun 2009 ini adalah tahun di mana wa paling sering nonton. Bahkan, FYI, pas mau tahun baru (Desember 2008), wa udah nge-list film-film yang release tahun 2009 sepanjang tahun yang bakalan wa tonton (credits to: wikipedia :thumbsup: :cling:). Beberapa berhasil wa tonton (woohoo!), beberapa ngga jadi ditonton (yea, udah keburu males, sih *kicked*), beberapa ngga sempet nonton (crap!), beberapa ngga bisa ditonton (T_T) – jangan tanya list-nya isinya apa aja (udah dihapus)!
Well, kayaknya norak banget, ya? And yang lebih noraknya lagi, wa udah ngebikin list film yang release tahun 2010 yang mau wa tonton~! XD *kicked* bukan itu, it’s fine for me to have a must-watch/watching list, but what I really mean is: wa akhirnya bisa nyobain studio 3D itu kayak gimana! XD *kicked for real* Yup, tanggal 21 Desember 2009, wa nonton film 3D pertama wa, Avatar – yang keren abis! Honestly, wa cukup ngerasa 3D studio’s just a waste of money, so I don’t feel like going there anymore *beheaded*

WE ARE GOLDEN XQS!

Yup, buat anak-anak XQS, pasti udah pada tahu yang ini tentang apa. Yup, wa masih inget kalo gara-gara XQS, banyak hal terjadi dalam hidup wa. Contohnya: Wa akhirnya bikin WP cuma buat post tentang EUFOR and karena tahu si Digun punya WP juga *slapped* oke, bukan itu, tapi bagaimana kita bisa solid, and hang out together, and many more (makin lama makin gaje? *stomped*)… well, yang mau wa sampaikan adalah:

… yeah, I remember our first debate; EUPHORIA at DwiWarna. I remember the Ayub incident *slapped*. I remember the dinner in Pizza Hut; about our promise to dine again as a winner. I remember about how we were so GD impressed with the Cisauk guys (yow, you, guys! Are you reading this? *whacked*); yeah, the three of them. Then I remember about our second debate, which is either ENTHUSIASTIC at SMANSA, or ALSA 13th E-Comp at UI – I forget (tho’ I think ENTHU comes first). I remember our first INTERNAL trophy (however, it’s still a trophy, rite?! XD). I remember about ENTHU’s frigging final round (no hard feelings, guys =)) =)) =)) *whacked*). I remember about our grudge with RP; to compete against them again (or was it my grudge? XD *stabbed*). I remember about the deathly sentence when we’re against the ISDC’s besties too (sorry, Ica)!! XD I remember how I didn’t respond when I know that the guys I was facing were 3 of 9 ISDC best speakers. Yea, I remember how fool I was back then XD I remember the dancing POI against SMAN 81 Jakarta. I remember that our scores in ALSA E-Comp were just tight. I remember how we hanged out and watched movies and had dinner or lunches when good movies’re around ) I remember that I’m always in a same team with Ica ) I remember our last competition this year; IAAS 2nd OLYMPIC at IPB. I remember how finally Hafizh, Tita, and Ola, beat the Cisauk trio for the first time (thought luck, guys ). I remember meeting the debaters from Petra Surabaya, yea, Armando was the only name that stuck, so sorry for the other two XD *whacked* I remember how fierce the grand final round was. I remember the debating styles that I’ve faced before. I remember our first EXTERNAL trophies. I remember our first 3 million $_$ *slapped* I remember our jacket designs (whose fate is still unclear *stomped*). I remember the LOs that had escorted us in those competitions. I remember that Hafizh, Tita, and Digun, went to Bandung as Bogor’s ISDC contestants. I remember about a certain teacher that I hate to say his name here.

I remember about Adiguna Bahari
I remember about Aimanur Muharam Tohir
I remember about Annisa Lalitya Mumtaza
I remember about Ayip Fahmi Faturochman
I remember about Budiasti Wulansari
I remember about Hafizh Adi Prasetya
I remember about Tanita Dhiyaan R.

I remember about all of you, guys. Those who I recently had realized got a special place in my heart, esp for some of you *whacked* =))

Err, tadi cuma list “I remember” doang, ya? ) *kicked*

LET THERE BE LIGHT… AND SMOKES XD

Next ones, are: you, eASY term 2009/2010 members, representatives, committees, main committees, and chairman!
Yup, tahun ini – tepatnya setengah tahun ke belakang ini – kalian juga mengisi tempat-tempat kosong di dalam hati wa. Sebagai satu angkatan, kalian kuat, terutama buat angkatan Benteng Batu yang baru join, kalian udah nunjukin hard work kalian, devotion kalian, so, wa minta maaf kalo wa datengnya telat mulu, acuh ngga acuh, ribet sendiri, jutek, indifferent (eh, sama aja, ya? XD), leled, suka marah-marah, etc, etc, etc *masukkan komentar kalian sendiri*. Apalagi pas LMT yang rasanya masih bergaung di dalam rongga benak wa sekarang, pas wa ngetik resolusi ini ) (yea, I still remember about how acted – though I couldn’t remember what I said XD)
Hal ini juga terutama buat kalian, adek-adek dan temen-temen yang sudah menjalani masa-masa PM bareng-bareng (dengan pengecualian beberapa orang *whacked*). Meskipun sekarang wa udah lupa siapa aja yang pernah jadi PM *stabbed* tapi ngeliat bagaimana kalian, yang mungkin belom tahu eASY itu kayak gimana ancurnya tapi udah berusaha hidup-hidupan buat staying alive eASY.
Thank you, guys, thank you. Mau make Bahasa Jerman? Boleh, boleh. Danke schon, danke ) Japanese? Domo, arigatou (Ami, bener ngga? ) *kicked*). Jujur aja, wa sekarang bisa tenang kalo taon depan eASY dilanjutin sama kalian (ea, emangnya udah mua lengser lagi? <– ketauan pengen cepet-cepet LMT lagi~ XD *pierced*). Just keep up your work, keep up your spirit (lha? jadi kayak Cathy? *slashed*), and keep do your best for eASY
Semoga semua proker kita bisa berjalan lancar dengan LMT yang makan hampir 1 semester *whacked* serta rumor yang mengatakan kalau semester dua nanti hari Sabtu kita sekolah lagi –a

7 FACES…

Bukan, wa bukannya operasi plastik 7 kali tahun ini, tapi ini tentang role-play.
Yup, so, pertama-tama wa mau mengucapkan terima kasih kepada a certain someone (namanya Bila) yang telah memperkenalkan wa pada dunia RP dengan serius. Sebenernya wa dari dulu udah pernah denger tentang RP, cuma waktu itu wa ngga dwell in seriously. Pernah sekali, di IAF (IndoAkatsuki Forum), and I enjoyed it, cuma ngga seribet pas wa akhirnya ngejeblosin diri ke IH (Indonesian Hogwarts) and ampe ngerencanain ngebikin 4 plot yang berbeda dengan membuat 7 OCs XD (yang akhirnya dimatiin semua, kecuali Trio Corvus XD *slapped*). Dari IH wa jadi lebih menghargai EYD, and lebih tertarik untuk mendalaminya dan dunia sastra dengan lebih serius. Wa juga bisa mengembangkan imajinasi wa.
And yang lebih mantebnya lagi, dari IH wa juga menemukan BOHQ (Black Order Headquarter) – mana waktu itu lagi addicted ama DGM, lagi, just perfect timing! XD So pasti wa langsung daftar, and akhirnya sekarang malah punya banyak OC di sana ) mulai dari Supervisor, General, Exorcist, Finder. Di sini (BOHQ), I believe I have a good time, and wa ikutan diangkat jadi SE (bukan Sarjana Ekonomi, tapi Staff Evaluasi! XD) yang cukup wa nikmati kerjaannya
Tapi, ternyata hikayat RP wa belum berhenti sampai di situ! Dari blog Herbology (entah punya siapa wa udah lupa), wa dapet link ke PW (Potter’s World) di mana wa daftar dengan sembrono sebagai Viktor Oldman XD *slapped* yang sekarang jadi inaktif karena wa masih grogi RP make Bahasa Inggris XD *stomped* Dan layaknya anak kecil belom kapok, wa sekarang berkeinginan untuk menjamah BTM (bukan Bogor Trade Mall, tapi Behind the Magic! XD), yang karakternya bakalan wa lanjutin ke Ardineu University of Magic; selain itu, wa juga udah punya chara di DW (Darkwall) yang registration post-nya tinggal di-post di forum yang bener-bener keren itu (sayang make Bahasa Inggris <– lom pede tea, ceritana, pan~ *stomped* ) ).
Sementara itu, tentunya wa masih akan sering nongol di BOHQ

Backstreet Boys! )

Hampir klimaks!
Well, untuk poin ini, cukup dengerin aja lagu-lagunya BSB – yang lagi wa suka sekarang – and kalian bakalan tahu apa isi poin ini *sok misterius* *slashed*

Reborn from the glass dusts

Oke, buat poin ini, kayaknya yang ngerti (ato at least, tahu dengan bener) itu cuma si Ica doang, ya? )
Well, gini, nih, dari tanggal 23-28 desember 2009, wa cabut ke Bandung. Ngapain? Yea, emang bener, sih, wa jalan-jalan ke Riau (Jalan Riau maksudnya, yang ada Oasis, etc itu) and ke Ciwalk. Phew, cuma dibekelin duit yang ngga begitu banyak (baca: 40 rb), sih, jadinya of course (wew, ngga efisien –a) wa ngga beli apa-apa di Riau. Well, after all, tujuan wa ngambil pilihan City Tour 1 ini soalnya wa mau mini gath ama salah satu staff di BOHQ and nyari topi Al Capone di Ciwalk (sekalian nyolong wi-fi McD ntar *evil grin* *slapped*) …
OKE, OKE, STOP!
Poin ini bukan buat ngomongin semua “rekreasi” ini, tapi bahwa wa merasa revived di Sidang Perbauran Remaja Regional 2, 3, 4, 5, (Jabar, Jakarta, Jateng, Kalimantan, and Sulawesi). And di sini, banyak orang yang menarik, and guess what? Banyak orang yang ternyata mirip ama orang-orang di kehidupan sehari-hari wa!
Misalnya, ada seorang Ka Hartono dari Jakarta (H1) yang gaya bicaranya mirip Pa Set (kemayu-kemayu gitu – well, gara-gara wa udah ketemu ama dia beberapa tahun yang lalu pas wa masih di SMP; Terus ada Yudi dari Jakarta juga (H16) yang mirip ama Murai; Terus ada juga yang mirip ama botis (baca: Riefan)! Yea, tersebutlah seorang Stephen dari Bekasi XD sayangnya dia (Stephen) ngga se-botis Riefan, malahan, tuh, orang jenius abis. Bisa ngafalin lebih kurang 101 ayat [Alkitab], cuy! Lanjut lagi, ada Indra dari Cimahi yang mirip banget ama A Aufa! Yoi, anak OSIS WINDMILL pasti tahu, kan? ) Terus, yang fans-nya BBF (Boys Before Flowers), ada juga yang mirip ama Kim Bum di sini, namanya Nicko Fernandez dari Jakarta (H16) XD Gokil, kan?
Oke, selesai ama look-alike cowo, sekarang yang cewe. Ada seorang cewe yang gaya rambutnya mirip Dwiarti Larasputri (wa ngga sempet nanya namanya) and ada juga yang mirip Salsabila Panji Arum (2-2-nya junior wa di SMANSA), terus ada juga yang mirip ama Tera Wednes Oktireva Harsa (yoi, Chairperson eASY ke-8) namanya Eden dari Makassar; Belom beres, ada juga Felicia dari Jakarta (H3) yang kayaknya merupakan pergabungan Erwina Salsabila (debater dari Cisauk) and Wanda (dari SMANSA) – komen buat dia, yea, of course, udah pinter (seorang penghafal ayat juga) cantik lagi. Manteb, dah XD (Well, di sini wa ngomong blak-blakan aja, oke?); Tapi itu semua baru di luar, wa ngga tau dalemnya, yang pasti ada seorang cewe yang kepribadiannya sama menyenangkannya seperti si Darisa Syahrini. Oke, ngga usah wa ceritain lagi buat junior wa yang satu ini, pokoknya, banyak hal menarik terjadi pas wa ada di Bandung. Meskipun jadwalnya super ketat and suara wa abis di hari pertama and ngga balik-balik (tapi malah makin parah) soalnya tiap hari teriak-teriak mulu, juga tidurnya kayaknya di barak dengan kasur gelar yang tipis and dingin (gokil, itu AC lebih dari 7 kayaknya ON semua semaleman!), tapi wa tetep dapet sesuatu yang sangat berarti di sana, yaitu wa makin cinta Tuhan and wa dibangkitkan lagi kondisi spiritual and fisiknya ) emang, dah, sidang-sidang kayak gitu manteb abis.
Well, ada juga yang ngga menyenangkan, sih, sekedar pemberitahuan, wa, tuh, adalah orang yang kurang suka ama pesulap, and cenderung merasa terancam kalo ada pesulap di deket wa. Nah, di kamar wa, ada semacam street magician gitu ) and, yea, malem-malem wa tidur rada ngga tenang (meskipun akhirnya jatuh terlelap juga) gara-gara takut dihipnotis XD XD Oke, ini rada garing (sorry peringatannya telad *hanged*).

Monochrome Labyrinth Ever After

Climax!!!
Oke, let’s skip this part *hanged*
Really, it’s not the part I could/would like to say in public~ XD
Perhaps, here I’ll say that it’s nice to have a fox around…
But I definitely can’t get away from my previous one;
Who had maddened me in such a way that I could never forget;
Yeah, I used to name her, Black and White
or should I call her…
6 5 2

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Demikianlah resolusi tahun 2009 wa! Gimana? Ada komentar? Kalo ada langsung post aja!

Sekedar kata-kata penutup, pertama-tama, don’t freak out. I know my limits now, okay? Terus dengan klimaks itu sekarang semuanya udah ngerti, kan, kenapa judulnya “Monochrome Resolution”? Thanks for reading, and sekedar puisi super pendek penutup dari wa:

A year will pass
and the clock hands will move,
as the days will fold itself forward,
let us hope not for a brighter year ahead
but for a better living us
in this happy new year of twenty ten

Aurumina – the Dragonfly

I go on to the forest’s depths
as the storm had ceased
I abandoned the ruined innocence
by the forsaken hut
and ventured to the trees
when the black lightning left

there, i set my eyes on the small pool
there, i recognized your frail wings
there, over the pool i see
how you expand your wings
to fight the scourging winds
and fly like a dragonfly

i wonder, how many times you have left
i wonder, how many things we can do together

i had lost myself
and now they want to take another part of my life
when will they stop?
only when i’m all alone, right?

let alone my dear friend,
the crumbled innocence,
destroyed in a blink of eye;
this time, none shall prevail
whether it’s the black lightning
or the death itself
will walk over my dead body to gain the dragonfly

Aurumina – When Innocence Crumbles

The hut is the only shelter we had
together under the storm’s nose
we hold our hands to withstand the burst of emotion above
then a flash came to sight
a dark flash i may correct
the rarest thing ever in history
the black lightning had descended unto us

Innocence sees the deity-like goddess in awe
like he can adore her for the rest of his life
and so do i
until i blink my eyes a fraction of of second later
because i know the real face behind those warm earthly mask
is a quiet and twisted power
who steps on everything stupid enough to stand in her way

the twisted mind comes forward
and innocence stands upright
to embrace and welcome the wonderful persona
i know that it’s greatly dangerous and unwise
but i am paralyzed by the gaze of the corruption within her
i was doomed to see my own friend walks away to his very end
and crashed with the unholy jolt from the hand of the thing before me
my very eyes succumbs to the darkness within
as the unholy jolt crumbled my innocence

when the light comes my deep red eyes
i can see his remains in front of me
as the fragrance of burning soul tingles my nose
i come closer to the alien charcoals before me
and collect them all in my hands
i kneel down and cry
as i’ve lost my innocence
a great friend since the beginning of time
i kiss his remains desperately
and fall to the dark once more
as my mind had reached its limits

I think

I am sure that
I am not a lion
Whose ferocity shall protect you
From your enemies
.
I believe that
I am not a cow
Whose milk and meat shall nourish you
In times of trouble and need
.
I know that
I am not an eagle
Whose eyes shall watch over you
All days and nights
.
I am aware that
I am not a shark
Whose fins shall slash the waves of trouble
In the ocean of life
.
I guess
I am neither a snake
Whose cunningness shall teach you
The secrets of the tricksters
.
But I think
I am your friend
Whose existence hopes to be a help for you
Who is anxious to say:
.
“Happy 16th Birthday!
May the best of the blessings
Descends upon you
For all times.”

ISSUMAGIJOUJUNGNAINERMIK

Dr M. Norvel Young dan Mary Hollinsworth pernah menceritakan tentang sekelompok misionaris Moravia yang mau menyampaikan firman Tuhan kepada orang Eskimo. Mereka tidak dapat menemukan kata “pengampunan” dalam bahasa Eskimo. Maka, mereka menyusun satu frase yang berbunyi “issumagijoujungnainermik” yang berarti “tidak mampu lagi untuk mengingat tentang itu”. Sebagai anak-anak Allah, kita harus belajar mengampuni saudara kita dan tidak terus mengingat-ingat dosanya itu, apalagi mendendam (Im. 19:18a). Pengampunan yang tulus dari dalam hati seperti itulah baru yang terhitung di hadapan Bapa

Arus Hayat Volume 6 Minggu ke-2, Hari Senin

Aurumina – the Innocent

I had awaken, and now I walked
circling the island, following the shore lines
to explore this island more

along the way, the view of the morning horizon
sooths my eyes with beauty
burns my spirit with strength
supports my limbs with hope
thus, I walked, and walked
and walked

until I found you,
a little child with the most delicate skin ever
you, whose radiance beat the sun
who warm every thing around you
who brought light and kindness with your steps
whose steps nature follows
hopefully, you walk toward me
and we smiled each other

waves of joy crushed on me
as your aura embraced me
o, innocent one
you met me, the corrupted and wicked
you embrace me, without blame nor accusations
you talked to me, without fear nor hesitation
really, an innocent one

but an innocent is the most fragile type of human
in this dark cruel world
and as the sky goes gray with the clouds
I asked you for settlements
against the coming storm
because your radiance had win over me
and I don’t want that radiance burns out

we walked across the sandy beach
and the raindrop starts to jump, and
pierce the white sands below
hitting our heads like a war drum,
until we reached a little hut by the lake

we sat there as the rain falls
we chatted about many things
about your innocent life
about my corrupted homeland
about your memory loss
about my soul voyage
about humanity
and I’m really thankful that
you are here, to comfort me
with your radiance and existence
to make me feel what it’s like
to be a homo socius once again

now the rain had stopped
and I am not alone anymore
I have you
a resident of this island
a guide to my gilded idol
the innocent

Aurumina – Interlude

under the full moon, the wolves howl
like welcoming an uninvinted guest
that’s just set his foot
on the soft delicate sands
he inhales a lungful of the island’s air
and the fresh dew touched his lips

morning’s about to come,
he, I, said,
but as another day begin,
another handful of time to pursue
is lost
another event missed my eyes
another layer of rock crumbles
under the heat of the lava

but I couldn’t think the way I’m supposed to be
I kneel down by the weariness
of swimming all night long
I taste the sand with my skin
let my fingers drew murals on the soft sand;
I smell the smell I had missed for so long
since my vessel had sailed
in this soul voyage

times waits for none
and the sun follows without hesitation
I began to regain consciousness
I set my head highs to see
the goal of my journey
far deep in the forests before me
the gilded idol in the belly of the volcano
somewhere in this uncharted island

no map nor compass could help me
it’s just my senses alone
where I could stand on
I brought no food nor drink
because I know
that the paradise where I had set my foot upon
shall not welcome me emptyhanded
because this is just a beginning
of my soul voyage

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