Aurumina – the Dragonfly

I go on to the forest’s depths
as the storm had ceased
I abandoned the ruined innocence
by the forsaken hut
and ventured to the trees
when the black lightning left

there, i set my eyes on the small pool
there, i recognized your frail wings
there, over the pool i see
how you expand your wings
to fight the scourging winds
and fly like a dragonfly

i wonder, how many times you have left
i wonder, how many things we can do together

i had lost myself
and now they want to take another part of my life
when will they stop?
only when i’m all alone, right?

let alone my dear friend,
the crumbled innocence,
destroyed in a blink of eye;
this time, none shall prevail
whether it’s the black lightning
or the death itself
will walk over my dead body to gain the dragonfly

Aurumina – When Innocence Crumbles

The hut is the only shelter we had
together under the storm’s nose
we hold our hands to withstand the burst of emotion above
then a flash came to sight
a dark flash i may correct
the rarest thing ever in history
the black lightning had descended unto us

Innocence sees the deity-like goddess in awe
like he can adore her for the rest of his life
and so do i
until i blink my eyes a fraction of of second later
because i know the real face behind those warm earthly mask
is a quiet and twisted power
who steps on everything stupid enough to stand in her way

the twisted mind comes forward
and innocence stands upright
to embrace and welcome the wonderful persona
i know that it’s greatly dangerous and unwise
but i am paralyzed by the gaze of the corruption within her
i was doomed to see my own friend walks away to his very end
and crashed with the unholy jolt from the hand of the thing before me
my very eyes succumbs to the darkness within
as the unholy jolt crumbled my innocence

when the light comes my deep red eyes
i can see his remains in front of me
as the fragrance of burning soul tingles my nose
i come closer to the alien charcoals before me
and collect them all in my hands
i kneel down and cry
as i’ve lost my innocence
a great friend since the beginning of time
i kiss his remains desperately
and fall to the dark once more
as my mind had reached its limits

Aurumina – the Innocent

I had awaken, and now I walked
circling the island, following the shore lines
to explore this island more

along the way, the view of the morning horizon
sooths my eyes with beauty
burns my spirit with strength
supports my limbs with hope
thus, I walked, and walked
and walked

until I found you,
a little child with the most delicate skin ever
you, whose radiance beat the sun
who warm every thing around you
who brought light and kindness with your steps
whose steps nature follows
hopefully, you walk toward me
and we smiled each other

waves of joy crushed on me
as your aura embraced me
o, innocent one
you met me, the corrupted and wicked
you embrace me, without blame nor accusations
you talked to me, without fear nor hesitation
really, an innocent one

but an innocent is the most fragile type of human
in this dark cruel world
and as the sky goes gray with the clouds
I asked you for settlements
against the coming storm
because your radiance had win over me
and I don’t want that radiance burns out

we walked across the sandy beach
and the raindrop starts to jump, and
pierce the white sands below
hitting our heads like a war drum,
until we reached a little hut by the lake

we sat there as the rain falls
we chatted about many things
about your innocent life
about my corrupted homeland
about your memory loss
about my soul voyage
about humanity
and I’m really thankful that
you are here, to comfort me
with your radiance and existence
to make me feel what it’s like
to be a homo socius once again

now the rain had stopped
and I am not alone anymore
I have you
a resident of this island
a guide to my gilded idol
the innocent

Aurumina – Interlude

under the full moon, the wolves howl
like welcoming an uninvinted guest
that’s just set his foot
on the soft delicate sands
he inhales a lungful of the island’s air
and the fresh dew touched his lips

morning’s about to come,
he, I, said,
but as another day begin,
another handful of time to pursue
is lost
another event missed my eyes
another layer of rock crumbles
under the heat of the lava

but I couldn’t think the way I’m supposed to be
I kneel down by the weariness
of swimming all night long
I taste the sand with my skin
let my fingers drew murals on the soft sand;
I smell the smell I had missed for so long
since my vessel had sailed
in this soul voyage

times waits for none
and the sun follows without hesitation
I began to regain consciousness
I set my head highs to see
the goal of my journey
far deep in the forests before me
the gilded idol in the belly of the volcano
somewhere in this uncharted island

no map nor compass could help me
it’s just my senses alone
where I could stand on
I brought no food nor drink
because I know
that the paradise where I had set my foot upon
shall not welcome me emptyhanded
because this is just a beginning
of my soul voyage

-interlude-

Another Project Named “Aurumina”

Oke, deh, tanpa basa-basi, langsung aja kita mulai!

Kali ini wa mo ngomongin tentang project terbaru L’Arc en Ciel wa, yaitu konser keliling Bogor “Aurumina“!

Nah, pertama-tama, ayo kita kupas dulu dari kulitnya namanya.

Aurumina

Ngerasa familiar, ngga?
Ngga?
zhuung

haha. oke, deh, dari pada bikin penasaran and tambah gaje, langsung aja wa bahas!

Aurumina adalah gabungan dari kata “Aurum” dan “Mina“.
Kata “Aurum” adalah kata Latin yang digunakan untuk menamai Emas (Yup, logam mulai itu! ) dalam tabel periodik unsur; “Mina” adalah nama cewe.
Wah, dah ngasih spoiler lagi, neh.
Haha.

Nah, Project Aurumina ini adalah proyek puisi bertema adventure dengan setting sebuah pulau. Alesan kenapa wa ngambil tema adventure, tanya sendiri aja, deh, males wa olaborate di sini . And tentu saja, seperti yang udah bisa ditebak, target dari pada Aurumina ini adalah “Gilded Idol” yang berada di volcano di tengah-tengah island ini. Wa menemukan konsepnya menarik and wa bikin, deh; at least it’s better than my previous melancholic poems… Ah, jadi keinget lagi, dah…

Oke, dari pada all-gloomy kayak gitu, wa putuskan untuk bangkit dengan menggunakan project ini!

Hmm, masalah yang ada di balik codename ini, tebak ndiri, ya?
(sok penting banget, wa? haha)

Aurumina – the Drowned

I set my eyes again
on the island before me
I set my eyes on the smokey peak
deep in the jungle

I inhale the salty air
and I brace myself
it’s just a matter of time
until I submerge to the sharky waters
because I know that my indelicate vessel
could not get through the rocks ahead

I look at the waters below
and as I continuously observed the horizon
I know now when the sharks are away
I know now when I could jump to the waters safely
now I’m waiting the sun to set
when the fins shall disappear to nowhere
and I could jump to the dark waters

as the sun moves sluggishly to the west
my heart feels the pressure of uncertainty
and questions if my observations were enough

I begin to doubt and wonder
but I waves those thoughts away
because I know not when the volcano will erupt
and my golden idol shall melt away
altogether with the volcanic lava

So I clear my head and inhale once more
to get myself a new strength
to brace myself before I join the abyssal creatures
in the dark waters before me
as the sun had set
now

I jump to the dark waters below
and cold knives pierces me without hesitation
as I hit the water imbued with unbelievable coldness
I tried to catch a breath, but the gravity pulls me downward
stronger beyond my wildest dreams
I begin to sink without any regret left

my mind races with time to save me
but the memories of my life show themselves in glimpses
trying to disabling my mind
I could see the light above, as I open my eyes
the warmth of the white mask welcomes me with open hands
and as the water breaches my last defence
I began to wonder
is this death?

but I will not give up
even I haven’t set my feet on the sands
wouldn’t it be ridiculous if I abandon all purposes of this voyage
and found dead metres away from my island of dreams?
I will not give up
I shall not give up!

therefore I try to move my crippled limbs
I struggle with the frost
and I begin to feel my ring finger once more
I continue to fight, to struggle,
among the cold currents and gravity shock
and I can feel the blood flowing in my veins
the spirit to live rushes all the way
pumping my adrenaline
and as my adrenaline rushes
I jumped to the surface
breaking the cold mirrors in front of my eyes

salty air, though not fresh, tastes like heaven in my lungs
as it feels my lungs with sudden joy and renewed strength
the force of life returns to my body
and I realized that the moon is smiling bright
trying to encourage the lunatic below

thus I smiled back with victory
I’ve passed the cold
and now I couldn’t set my eyes aside
from the island of my dreams
where my golden idol resides
waiting to be mine

-the drowned-

Aurumina – Prologue

I embark on this shore long long ago
to search for the mystery of emotion
to understand where this world ends
to look for the islands uncharted
to get myself the harbor of my soul

That’s why I never set my eyes back
because all left for me is corruption
and sin altogether with the darkness of my past
the hidden evil within me
the pain of neverending journey

I’ve walked the earth
and I’m sick of it
now I tried to sail the seas
carrying uncertainty in my heart

In this neverending voyage
I never look behind
to the storms that had passed
to the crushing waves that rammed my boat
my only undelicate vessel
where i could stay safe in the lonely nights
where I could hold on in the rampaging storms
where I could keep my hope
this last hope
to find the one I’m looking for

Now I’ve charted the island I’m looking for
the very harbor of my soul
and I forgot about the question
about the end of this world
I forgot them all
because there’s a treasure island just in front of me
an island full of everything I’ve dreamed for
an island that I could be fulfilled
that maybe I could be satisfied

Among those treasures, those dreams,
I have something in my heart
that I treasure the most
I may sail for many dreams

to answer the universe’s multitude of questions
but I know that I’m all limited
that I could not bear all of them
so I chose the closest one in my eyes
yet the farest one from my heart
that’s the gilded idol in the belly of a volcano
deep in the island’s forest

For that gilded idol
I will swim among the sharks
I will set myself across the rocks ahead
I will taste the delicate sands once more
I will break my way through the jungle
I will climb the highest cliffs
I will dive to the volcano
I will breathe the volcanic dust
I will jump and venture to the belly of the volcano
where i can gain for myself
the gilded idol
the greatest trophy of mankind
and of me