Makiyo – Sign of Wish

Japanese Lyrics:

Tsukamaeta yume wa itsumo katachi wo kaete shimau kara
Kidzukanai uchi ni subete nakushiteru koto mo aru desho
Dakedo kitto

Sugita kinou wo furikaeru tabi kokoro ga itamu kara
Wasurekaketeta omoi no kakera
Mienai asu ni sagasou yo

* i believe in my dream
Hakanai kedo kono sekai no katasumi de
Samishisa o koraenagara kagayaku hi wo matte iru
Itsumademo kienai a sign of wish

Nemuranai yoru ni hitori ibasho wo sagashitsudzuketeru
Kiesou na hoshi ni hitotsu negai wo todokerareru made
Kimi wa motto

Tsuyoku naru koto kodoku datte koto mou wakatteru kara
Tooi maboroshi oikakeru yo ni
Mezameru sora ni tobidatou

Nanairo no niji ni tokeru jinia no saku ano oka de
Taiyou ga waraikakeru mabushii yume shinjiteru
Itsumademo mitsumete a sign of wish

* repeat

English Translation:

the dreams i catch always change shape

and before i realize it, i’ve lost everything

but i know

whenever i look back at yesterday, my heart aches

i’m going to search for the forgotten fragnments of memory

in a tomorow i can’t see

i believe my dream it’s fragile

but in a corner of the world

a shining day awaits, holding back the sorrow

it will never disappear, a sign of wish

on sleepless nights, i keep searching alone

until one wish

reaches a star

that’s about to disappear

you already know

that you’ll get stronger that you’re lonely

i’ll awaken and take flight through the sky

as if chasing a distant phantom

a rainbow melts into that

zinnia covered-hill

there the sun is laughing

and i believe in a brilliant dream

i’ll always looking at it, a sign of wish

i believe my dream it’s fragile

but in a corner of the world

a shining day awaits

holding back the sorrow

it will never disappear, a sign of wish

___

my last hope

that the gradient will come

or that we could be balanced

remember

i never want the future i’ve seen

and i’m praying it everynight

wish it could end without dropping my blood

Day of Boredom

 

Hari ini adalah hari yang wa tunggu-tunggu

kenapa?

jawabannya adalah:

1. karena ada pelajaran Bio (and wa udah nyiapin pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang maknyus buat kelompok Nemathelmynthes) >;)
2. karena wa bisa ketemu Black and White lagi ;D
3. karena hari ini opening SMANSA Day (penasaran banget ama opening ceremony-nya)

 

and ternyata hari ini hampir mencapai Day of Boredom

mo tau napa?

jawabannya adalah:

1.  temen wa (fanto) kaga masuk (shit, man!)
   jadinya wa kaga bisa makan bareng pas istirahat, curhat, and the gank
2. hari ini kaga ada KBM (cuma 2, ntu pun Sunda and Inggris)
3. dan beberapa hal lainnya yang akan wa uraikan berikutnya

 

jadi, setelah tahu temen wa kaga masuk gara-gara uratnya tegang abis ngedaki gunung kemaren malem (please, deh, guys. Dia pasti belom pernah jalan kaki nanjak 25 km lebih di jalan kasar dengan bekal 1 botol minum untuk 3 orang dengan sinar matahari terik di siang bolong [singkat kata, jalan ke Sukamantri] + hiking di Situ Gunung [yang terjalnya parah]). tapi, tetep aja, sebagai teman yang baik, wa doain biar u cepet sembuh, ya, To

Terus wa juga sempet ngeliat at a glance dari si Black and White, tapi setelah ntu kaga lagi, ampe tiba-tiba si Chuck nyindir wa, “Cieeeeeee, Maleeeee!” and wa ngeliat kalo dia jalan sambil bawa-bawa balon banyak gitu.

Damn, wa kaga kebagian balonnya (orang wa kaga minta)

balonnya yang pertama abis (ato yang laen udah abis tapi my attention tertuju ke dia doang )  and dia langsung cabut ke ujung lapangan, diikuti oleh tatapan mata wa. Nah, di sono (sekalipun jauh – dari ujung ke ujung, man!), wa tetep seneng bisa ngeliat dia.

Call me I’m stupid if you feel so, but Im not gonna take my words back about it.

Tapi entah kenapa dia tiba-tiba ilang aja gitu pas wa pay a bit attention to the opening ceremony yang menurut wa, lumayan, lah . Curse you, girls who stood between me and her!

oke, deh, wa putuskan untuk pay attention ke opening ceremony-nya aja, deh, gara-gara those stupi* girls who stood back then. 

setelah opening ceremony beres, wa ke kelas, and …  - kita skip aja biar cepet – … wa mendapat berita yang sangat shocking!

Black and White batal jadi debater buat ALSA

DAMN!!!!!

Semangat wa buat ALSA langsung drop banget.

Kalo dulu wa bisa ngetik “GO!!! FIGHT!!! WIN!!!” ato “BREAK!!! FIGHT!!! WIN!!!” ato semacamnya [dengan semangat sportifitas dan mencari pengalaman], sekarang pikiran wa digerogoti sehingga tujuan wa sekarang di ALSA adalah menang! Biar wa bisa celebration ma dia!

COME! WIN! DESTROY!
ALSA!

 wedew, ini tambah bikin hati wa broken and bete, neh

beberapa hari kaga ketemu dia….. sama aja mati, dah

shit, man!

 

oke, udah gitu kaga ada KBM, and begitu wa lagi bengong and melakukan ‘my habit’ (apaan, tuh? komen, dong, ntar wa jawab ;D). Dari situ, wa bisa ngeliat kalo dia juga [maybe] as bored as I do. Mungkin ada masalah, mungkin ada yang melayang-layang di benaknya, something I don’t know. something that bothers me.

pokoknya, hari ini wa bored banget. and wa berusaha menghilangkan boredom dengan cara staring at her continuously

lumayan ampuh juga, sih

 

boredom mulai berkurang ketika bu Erna (guru Sunda) masuk kelas terus mulai dengan gayanya yang rada-rada pundung, ngajar. Gara-gara ada presentasi (and tentunya, sesi pertanyaan) wa jadi lebih semangat
and lebih semangat lagi pas Mam Susi (guru Inggris) masuk kelas and mulai ngajar
alhasil, wa jadi tau lebih banyak tentang Question Tag

 

oia! ada hal yang wa lupa!

hari ini ada info tentang AFS!

and wa semakin tertarik ikut AFS!

moga-mogaan wa bisa 1 program n 1 negara tujuan ma dia (kaga perlu 1 state) wish me success, k?

 

1 hal yang wa sesalkan hari ini adalah:

wa kaga bisa ngehibur dia pas dia gi bored

…

 

 

oia, wa juga sempet bikin puisi, check it out!

 

 

This day

I felt the solitude

because a close friend of me

didn’t show up

today

 

I began to thought things

but my boredom killed it straight away

and all of the sudden

an unknown witch casted a buff on me

and the buff killed my instincts slowly

though painlessly

and it made me felt sluggish

but I couldn’t fell to the other realm

because I knew that you’re nearby

 

So I looked at you

trying to pay attention at one thing important

at least in my life

and I’m trying to figure out

how your mind works

though I know that it’s pointless

but by staring at you

just made the sky clearer

and all of these boredom

that clouds my mind

lifted the moment I saw you

and I’m grateful for it

 

I wondered

did you felt the solitude too?

that you stare out of the window

though you’ve said once

that you’re a bit afraid to fly

if you don’t mind

please tell me

what clouds your mind

is it solitude?

is it confusion?

is it pain?

is it yourself?

 

Though I don’t know a thing about it

at least it could occupy my mind back then

my gaseous mind for exact

and I wish you could look into my eyes

so I could grab a clue

from the window of your soul

to figure it out

the answer of question

if you didn’t want to share with me

 

 

-Black and White-

Black and White – Revelation

I realized now
that I couldn’t lie to myself
because when I wrote things for her
I just noticed that it’s obviously for you
it’s a fact I couldn’t ever change
it’s a fact just like gravity pulls me to the center of the earth
it’s a fact I couldn’t ever escape
so, why should I lie to myself?
why should I address all of these for her
while you are my sole inspiration?

The revelation struck me
just as like the ghost of truth did
because it is the ghost I recognized
but it didn’t bring new wounds
just reopen old scars
but now
I’m ready
because I’ve been strengthened
by the words and thoughts
because love is and love doth

I realized now
that I could not flee from you
because love suffereth long
though I haven’t achieved the part where it envieth noth
but I’ve already achieved the part where it vaunteth not itself
though I haven’t achieved the part where it doth not behave unseemingly
but I’ve already achieved the part where it seeketh not my own
though I haven’t achieved the part where it thinketh not evil
but I’ve already achieved the part where it rejoiceth not in inquity, but in truth

though the truth hurts
but I’ll be happy with it
because I’ve realized now
that I could achieve the part where it beareth all things
believeth all things, hopeth all things
and endureth all things,
and the most important is
that it never faileth
though prophecies and tounges and knowledges
fail, cease, and vanish away
but love suffereth long
and it has no end

so
if I die
I prefer die by trying
though I don’t know how to try
because we’re different yet alike
and I couldn’t read minds
I just hoped I could see your near future
thus anticipated it

in your joy and sorrow
in your laugh and cry
I wish I could be there
I wish I could get a share
though I know it’s hard
but I believe
that love could endureth all things
that love would prevail
over the other two

Now
the revelation has moved
but it’s enough
because it strengthens me once again
though it pained me with the old wounds
but I’ve told you, isn’t it
that I’m a masochist for love
and I would not give up for love
until God Himself cometh and end all of this

until then
I wish you could be more open
because you’re thicker than the great wall of china
though I know that no matter how thick you are
you’re still made of rock,
which can be drilled
you’re still made of wood
which can be torn apart
because I know that you’re humane
very humane

and that’s why I couldn’t see you
as the same as I am
that’s a man of glass
because glass is inhumane
but rock and wood is humane
because men are made from soil
and soil grew tree after it’s made by rock
but who knows how what glass grew?
or what glass were before?

So
do not misjudge me, please
before you become mine
do not underestimate me, please
before you be open
do not give up the slightest feeling hidden in your deepest soul
where your latent spirit resides
before it resurrect
do not feel insecure around me, please
before you trust me
do not disgusted by me, I beg you
before you know what I really am

because
I’m still waiting here
I’m still sickly in love with you
I’m still desperate for any traces of you
your name, your fragrance, your voice, your gesture, your presence,
I’m still the same guy you know
though you don’t know how hideous I am
but I would rip my chest for you
because my heart thumps so hard around you
that it would break the ribs
and jumps towards you
just to be with you
forever

just remember
I’m here
has revealed
that I could not love anybody else
that my love is you
and yours alone
don’t forget that, please
if it burdens you
then just kill me
because that’s the only way
to end the sligthest misery that haunts you
to end my sufferings
to end this in a bittersweet way
to end my feeling for you

just you know
that love is strong as death
and it will grow anywhere like wild grass
all you have to do is to give me a chance
though I knew it’s hard for both of us
because I’m trying to catch the wind
but I know that though I couldn’t catch it
I could feel the breeze
and the breeze alone has comforted me
because it means that I’ve grab it
but it let loose of my hand very shortafter
and it’s stupid to say that it’s pointless

-A Sick Man Who Wanted to Catch the Wind-

No Regret Life – Nakushita Kotoba

Kono ryoute ni kakaete iru mono toki no shizuku
Sotto nigirishimete wasureta kioku nakushita kotoba

Hitotsu hitotsu omoidaseba subete wakatte ita ki ga shite ita no ni
Iroaseta kotoba wa boku no sugu soba ni oite atta

Kotae no denai yoru to hitohira no nukumori to haruka kanata no akogare to
Tada sore dake wo kurikaeshi boku wa ikite iru

Kono ryoute ni kakaete iru mono toki no shizuku
Sotto nigirishimete wasureta kioku nakushita kotoba

Anata ga omou koto wo sameru koto naku temoto ni tsukamitai no ni
Hito daru bokutachi wa sono kimochi wo wakachi aenai mama

Kotoba ga hanatsu imi wo tatoe no nai omoi wo kotaeru koto no nai kanjou wo
Mitsumeaeba tsutawaru koto ga dekitara ii no ni na

Kono ryoute ni kakaete iru mono toki no shizuku
Sotto nigirishimete wasureta kioku nakushita kotoba

Kono omoi wa mune ni shimatte okou

Nakushite shimatta… 

[English Translation}
I’m holding a drop of time in my hands
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words

When I recalled each event one by one, I thought I understood everything
But the faded words were right by my side

Nights when I can’t find an answer, and a single drop of warmth, and my longing for something far away
I’m spending my whole life just repeating those things over and over

I’m holding drops of time in my hands
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words

I want to grab all the things you love in my hand, never letting them cool down
While we, as people, are unable to share that feeling

The meaning your words release, an unquestionable love, a feeling that has no answers
If only we could convery all that just by looking at each other

I’m holding drops of time in my hands
I quietly grip the forgotten memories, the lost words

I’ll keep this love in my heart

I’ve lost you…

___

This song is cool, and I like No Regret Life

well, this song also has a touching lyrics (at least, I’m touched by it)

Yeah, I’ve lost you

but I’ll try to win it again and again 

Saturday, April 4th 2009

Saturday, April 4th 2009

 

Hari ini ada beberapa event penting dalam hidup wa. Apa itu? Oke, kita rinci dulu, penjelasannya belakangan.

Event-event itu adalah:

1. Nobar Fast and Furious 4

2. Seleksi ALSA

3. udah

hah? cuma 3 2?

yup, emang napa? selama ini semua penting, doesn’t matter mo berapa aja, kan?

 

oke, kita bahas satu-satu, mulai dari seleksi ALSA (ini kan periodik, guys, jadi seleksi dulu, baru setelah ntu nobar Fast and Furious-nya)

 

 

Seleksi ALSA

Awalnya wa udah rada minder sendiri gara-gara wa kagak nyiapin materi apa-apa, and wa cuma baca 1 pdf file (ntu pun membaca cepat karena waktu yang wa mepetin – soalnya mo oL FB ) tentang India dan Climate Change.

Wa makin minder aja pas denger kalo temen-temen wa udah pada nyiapin bahan. Bisa-bisa wa [yang kaga nyiapin bahan] kedepak neh, and kaga ikutan. Padahal wa udah semangat banget, neh, buat ALSA (semangat debatnya, bukan semangat nyari bahannya, kali, ye?) ;P

yawdah, wa pasrah aja. Eh, ternyata, tiba-tiba ada kabar kalo si Ola mo ikutan juga. Yang awalnya bakal jadi duel antara wa and Ica, ternyata bakal jadi triel (maksa gila!) antara wa, Ola, and Ica, memperebutkan 1 slot.

sebenernya wa udah denger-denger kabar kalo si Ola mo ikutan juga, sih, tapi wa pikir ntu cuma kabar angin gara-gara dia [yang anak OSIS] bakal ngurusin SMANSA Day,

and ternyata ada kabar lainnya yang lebih shocking, yaitu si Digun kaga ikutan gara-gara dia milih OSN (Olimpiade Sains Nasional) Biologi. Mantab

Kabar baiknya, ada 2 slot, kabar buruknya, ada 3 orang yang memperebutkan 2 slot tersebut.

Awalnya, si Widi mo sparring semuanya dari awal buat nentuin 6 orang yang kepilih buat mewakili SMANSA di ALSA, tapi gara-gara banyak yang kaga ada (Hafizh ada Topping, Tita ada Pandawa, Digun ada Pelatihan OSN, Ami ikutan Speech << terus?, Kania harus check up) jadinya sparring kaga dilakukan, melainkan dipecah menjadi 2 tim buat sparring. Pembagian timnya dilakukan dengan hompimpa.

hasilnya:

Motion: THBT TNI/POLRI Should Not Be Allowed to Vote in the General Ellection

Positive:

Ola

Ica

Widi

 

Negative:

wa

Tita

Karlina

 

Lho, sapa aja, neh, yang 1st, 2nd, and 3rd, serta Reply speaker?

sabar, sabar

ternyata, di tengah-tengah case build (yang menurut wa team negative is on the losing side << once again thanks to me, the idiot one who proposed the should be positive team to be a negative team), si tita dimarahin via SMS by her seniors di Pandawa, and dia terpaksa meninggalkan wa [yang kaga case build] and Karlina [yang ngakunya super newbie debat] sendirian (ato berduaan? whatever)

mantab

dengan tampang memelas (atau licik?) namun lega wa manggil-manggil team positive, and memberitahukan kepergian Tita

alhasil, yang tadinya mo sparring jadinya case build massal deh

nice

 

nah, setelah case build massal, kita semua mencar. Wa and Ica nungguin Hafizh and Digun yang Topping and latihan OSN Bio, sementara Ola and Ami pergi ke Boqer buat beli tiket dulu (si Aiman kayaknya udah nongkrong di sono juga, tuh)

setelah menunggu dengan bosan, akhirnya kita berhasil menemukan Hafizh yang sedari tadi kaga bisa dihubungin, kita akhirnya cabut ke Boqer gara-gara si Digun sms kalo misalnya dia ditinggal aja kalo tenggat waktu 15 menit yang diberikan telah habis, maka dia ditinggal aja

akhirnya, wa, Ica, and Hafizh cabut bertiga ke Boqer (and tanpa kita sadari, ternyata Digun selesai short after pas kita cabut, and pas kita turun dari angkot, dia ngeliat kita. shit man, kalo u manggil kita, kita bakal nunggu, koq, Gun. Kan tanpa u jadi cuma bertiga, kaga berempat << terus? lantas?)

demikianlah akhir dan awal dari pada seleksi ALSA, and kita lanjut ke acara nobar Fast and Furious

 

 

Fast and Furious

wedew, ni film just so-so, buat wa. tapi gara-gara ada Vin Diesel-nya, jadinya nilainya naek deh, 1 bintang

terus film ini IMO punya nice angle dalam pengambilan gambar, and action-nya lebih intense dari film-film sebelumnya, thus the star rises 1 again

it has a cool sand effect (which I wondered how could the director use the sand on the dune to produce such an effect in harmony without disturbing the movie), so the star rises 1 again

this film has many girls which I dislike (man, I just dislike women with minimum clothings) so, the star drops 1

this film is very predictable (maybe it’s related with my extremely weak intuitive aptitude or my accelerated probability), so the star just stuck there (though I wanted to drop it 1)

this film has a low CGI use, and I can forgive that

So, this film received 4 stars of 5 in my amateur judgement

not bad, eh?

 

oke, setelah review super singkat tentang Fast and Furious, wa juga mo cerita-cerita tentang somethings after and just prior the movie, neh

yang prior, pokoknya something terrible flashed in my mind, and I don’t wanna think about it [though I know that the chance is big] because I’ll never taint you more, love.

I’ll let it bleed until it finished [though I know the ghost has more up in his sleeves], but love endureth all things, and I believe I could walk through this with love

besides, I should say sorry because I and Hafizh schemed with the Pocky (if you don’t know what Pocky is,  it’s a chocolate dipped snack). So, I ate some Pocky sticks (the chocolate ones) in the dark studio with Hafizh (while knowing that you wanna to eat some too. You should have seen our face when we’re scheming it ;D << peace, girl). So, after he opened the second Pocky pack, I requested him to tell you that he opened the Pocky, but he hesitated (and because this time it’s strawberry dipped, I didn’t eat it) though he told you in the end after he ate half of them

So, sorry, okay?

it’s not good for your health to held grudges, I know that

 

Kalo afternya, abis nonton kita ke Solaria

ngapain?

makan, lah! masak ajojing?!

awalnya mo makan di Solaria atas (mungkin gara-gara kursinya semi-couch gitu [singkat kata, lebih nyaman]), tapi gara-gara kaga ada tempat, kita turun, deh

kita juga turun soalnya mo makan di PH

secara, Exquisite, kan, dibentuk di PH, maka apa salahnya kita balik ke PH buat ngenang old days?

eh, ternyata PH [yang baru buka di Boqer] penuh

damn

jadinya kita ke solaria bawah, deh [sebelomnya pernah dicetusin si Ola buat ke KFC, si Hafizh buat ke Sapo, si Digun buat ke A&W, and akhirnya diputuskan untuk jalan-jalan dulu dari pada debate deket PH gaje gitu].

 

and di Solaria, wa dikecewakan

2 kali coba, man!

2 kali!

 

sisipan bentar, tempat duduk kita di Solaria adalah:

Ica-Digun

Ola-Widi

Tita-Hafizh

Ami-Wa

Aiman (yeah, dia duduk di kursi ulang tahun )

 

 

wa dikecewain karena wa menemukan sesuatu [yang pastinya gaje buat lo-lo pada], and sesuatu itu dirusak harmoninya begitu saja.

sesuatu itu adalah:

 

 

Pola makanan yang dipesan

jadi, si Ola, Ica, and Digun mesen “Katsu”

terus wa nanya ke Widi, Tita, Hafizh, and Aiman menu yang dipesen

ternyata: Tita mesen “something-yang-merupakan-salah-satu-makanan-termahal-di-Solaria” (singkat kata: SYMSSMTDS);

Hafizh and Aiman mesen “sapo”

Widi mesen “Kwetiaw”

wa and Ami? kita berdua mesen “Smoked chicken fried rice” (yang menurut wa smoked chicken yang biasa aja. kayak ayam biasa)

 

awalnya wa pikir bakal ada harmoni yang lucu, yaitu:

Katsu-Katsu

Katsu-makanan A

makanan A-makanan A

Smoked Chicken-Smoked Chicken

makanan B

 

ternyata malah jadi:

Katsu-Katsu

Katsu-Kwetiaw

SYMSSMTDS-Sapo

Smoked Chicken-Smoked Chicken

Sapo

 

akh!

the harmony is broken!!!

Tidak!!!!!

 

gaje, kan?

that’s me

 

well, setelah itu kita foto-foto bentar (cuma 4x kalo ga salah) setelah ngobrol-ngobrol gaje bersama mengenai SMANSA, Pengalaman-pengalaman Aneh, etc.

akh

padahal rencananya mo pamer new hairstyle wa (sapa yang terpesona ma hairstyle wa coba? orang hairstyle-nya aneh gini. wedew, bukan tukang cukur langganan, sih)

 

terus setelah sholat, terdengarlah sebuah kabar yang sangat mengejutkan [lagi]. Heran, hari ini banyak banget, ya, kabar-kabar mengejutkan? Kabar ini adalah:

Si Hafizh mulai bimbang apakah dia memilih ikutan OSN Fisika ato ALSA

TIDAK!!!!

HAFIZH, seorang penganut Salsasm, bimbang?!

TIDAK!!!!

Kita butuh u, fizh!

Kita butuh u buat menang!

You’re not our hero!

(lebay juga, ya, wa? << baru nyadar? ck ck ck)

 

dengan demikian, ditutuplah acara Exquisite hari ini

buat XQS, KEEP FIGHTING FOR ALSA AND OSN!!!!

WHETHER YOU’RE SPEAKER, DEBATER, OSN-ER (maksa gila yang ini) OR OTHER

DON’T GIVE UP YET!!!

e

COME!!!! BREAK!!!! WIN!!!!!

ALSA!!!!!!!

Secondhand Serenade – Your Call

 

Secondhand Serenade – Your Call

Waiting for your call, I’m sick, call I’m angry

Call I’m desperate for your voice

Listening to the song we used to sing

In the car, do you remember

Butterfly, Early Summer

It’s playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

Like when we would meet

 

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

 

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh

I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh

Cause every breath that you will take

When you are sitting next to me

Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What’s your fantasy?

(What’s your, what’s your…)

 

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

 

And I’m tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home

[X4]

(I know everything you wanted isn’t anything you have)

 

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

(I know everything you wanted isn’t anything you have)

 

 

 

___

Well, this song really fits me

and I’m very touched by the song

in the first times, I thought no one could understand me, but Secondhand Serenade did, and I appreciate it very much :’)

So, if you wanna know about my feelings, then it’s the best song to describe it

it really fits :’)

 

 

P.S.

1. thank you, Fanto, for telling me the title of the song

really appreciate it

2. the link above could redirects you to the site where you can stream the song, or even download it!

it’s 4shared

Rob Thomas – Little Wonder

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don’t you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you 
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours 
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate 
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours 
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don’t mind 
If it’s me you need to turn to 
We’ll get by
It’s the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours 
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate 
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders 
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours, 
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away 
But these small hours 
These little wonders
Still remain

 

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This song always reminds me of you.
I know that the hardest part has yet to come
because I’ve seen it
and I know that we don’t have these small hours
nor this little wonder

But when I listened to this song, and when I sang this song
the reminder of you
somehow feels really sweet
because I’ve left reality at that time
and just by thinking of you
yeah, just by thinking of you
indeed, just thinking of you
give me the small hours I need
because the little wonder you left me
is the sweet yet unreal memory of you

 

 

P.S.

thanks, Sande Arrahman Harsa, for telling me about the song

Black and White – Sensation

Your presence,

is nothing but beauty;

has a powerful sensation,

which I tried to recall below

 

Your voice

is like a chiming bell of Heaven

that descends to the earth

to distrupt the imperfect harmony of my heartbeat

iwth the poewr no man could imagine

 

Your laughter

is like a war tantrum

which inhumanly knocks to my eardrums

that’s trying to keep consciousness

against the angelic rhythm

 

Your gesture

is like a devilish dance

perfectly controlled in harmony

that bewildered my very eyes

who caught any glimpse of it

 

Your fragrance

is sweet and soothing

that always reaches to the bottom of my soul

to pull out the core of my life

towards you, my third center of gravity

 

Your glance

is fiery and deadly

that boils every blood cells in my veins

that I could melt before it

and evaporates shortafter

 

Your gaze

is one of the basilisk

that shatters my masks

which lucky enough to met the otherwordly

that could zoom through my very soul

 

Your name

written in an alien language

because there’s only one person

who lived with your name

and I’m always mesmerized before it

 

With all those attributes

I believe you’re a goddess

whom I’ve been looking for

in my entire life

because I’ve realized now

that words had come short of the appeal

of you

 

Therefore

please don’t be away

yet don’t be strangled

because I’ll always miss your presence

that always left a unique sensation

in my heart and soul

 

 

 

-Black and White-

Black and White – Unique

There are so many look alikes in this world

I didn’t even count the impersonator yet

but I’ve found numerous of them

I didn’t even count the insignificant wanna-bes

but I’ve seen hundreds of them

 

Some of them were driven to the path

Some of them drove themselves to the path

Some of them were directed to the path

Some of them invented their way to the path

Some of them were lost in the path

Some of them accidentally dropped on the path

Some of them force their way to the path

Some of them were unable to escape the path

Some of them lived in the path

Some of them used the path

Some of them slipped into the path

Some of them tried to adapt to the path

Some of them died on the path

 

But I’m grateful

that you don’t live in the path

nor you died on the path

but you lived parallelly with the path

although you used it sometimes

but you never slipped to the path

nor you try to adapt to the path

because you’re unique

and your uniqueness is one of your beauty

and I love it very much

because it took years to find people like you

who never liked the path

but were forced at the ultimate conditions

yet still holding on to be yourself

and I really appreciate it

because you are the one and only

in the world

for that’s one of the philosophies

of your name

Black and White – You Went, I Stayed

You went ahead

leaving me behind

though I know

that you never thought of it

 

I stayed behind

staring you beyond

though I know

that I don’t belong there

 

You went ahead

leaving me behind

with all this mind torture

of being unable to see you

 

I stayed behind

staring you beyond

with another mind torture

of being disconnected with you

 

You went ahead

leaving me behind

but I’m happy

that you’re happy there

 

I stayed behind

staring you beyond

got bothered when I dreamed of you

laying lifelessly one night

 

You went ahead

leaving me behind

now you’re back

with new spirit of life

 

I stayed behind

staring you beyond

now after you’ve returned

my smile returned on my face

 

 

 

-Black and White-